when we pine for higher ceilings, and bourgeois happy feelings

There's a secret that the more sensible girl hides away from us, which is that having a good cry, far from being sissy, is a very effective and efficient way of processing overwhelming and especially unwanted emotion. The "macho" business of hoisting your testicles firmly and setting your jaw firmly as you wade through it is:

1. Physically fucking exhausting
2. Psychologically and cognitively quite overwhelming, with lots of mental processing needed
3. Lonely
4. A long winded pointless affair

Where having a proper cry about something which deserves a cry about (there's no criteria, your mind just knows) is, while physically intense, quite relieving, resolving, inviting of social support, and can (relatively) quickly turn a complex situation into one which is more digestible.

So thinking through that, and reading through the top five regrets of dying people has left me in a particularly mulling mood. hurrah.